And for the record, my heart is at peace -- but, here's what I wasn't prepared for:
- finding out that the ministry that the team will be associated with this week will be (basically) at the end of the street we USED to live on. I have not spoken of it here, but the move to our current home had a lot to do with the fact that I spotted a drug deal going down in our very own driveway. As the SAHM of a 2 and 6 year old, I no longer felt safe in my own home. That's the neighborhood where our daughter will spend a good portion of her week.
- reading (the morning after we dropped off our daughter) of a crime linked to the very street where our daughter will sleep each night this week.
Am I panicked? Absolutely not. However, I would be lying if I told you that I don't think about it a little. Obviously the ministry leaders are aware of the things that go on in the neighborhood. Obviously, the team leaders are taking every precaution to care for our kids. And obviously, Satan is using this as a scare tactic.
Well, my God is bigger than all of this. He's the one who I am turning to with my doubts. And he is the one who is encouraging my heart.
Don't tell God how big your problems* are.
Tell your problems* how big GOD is!
*substitute the word "worries."
Thanks for your very honest post. I'll definitely pray for protection on the kids that are going. And for your heart to be at peace. As another mom, I totally get it!
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