Friday, May 16, 2014

Holding Back the Truth

I haven't been really honest with you.  Instead, I've been absent.

I love to leave comments for bloggers who have spilled their guts and been honest.  "Thanks for keeping it real," I tell them.  And yet, I haven't offered much honesty, or much of my personal reality here lately.

Because lately:
  • I haven't felt especially inspired to write.
  • I haven't felt inspired to take pictures.  Between snow, rain, or a generally squishy yard, I've hardly ventured out to snap pictures in recent months.
  • I haven't felt as if I am in a position to spend money to do random projects (that I wouldn't have done otherwise) just for the sake of a blog post.
  • I have been guilty lately of comparing myself to other [more popular] bloggers, and thinking "why bother?"  {Comparison is indeed the thief of JOY!}
  • I have made some bad choices (in some simple "blip-on-the-screen-of-life" kind of ways) when it comes to taking care of myself, and doing right by myself in order to be FULLY HERE for my family.
  • I have let life get the best of me -- instead of giving MY BEST to life.
  • I have let the business of rocking babies (which I LOVE, and do well) be my excuse for not doing other things well around here.  {How do moms who work FULL time do it?}
  • I have let the weather (and allergies) dictate my mood.
  • I have let my inclination to be a homebody limit me.

If I'm honest, I guess I'd say that this is just the short list.

I guess if you're honest, too, you might say that you've had days, or weeks, or months like this.

Blah.  I feel like I just dumped a depressing load on you all.  I don't often give in to lots of these negative thoughts.  You know.... I'm supposed to be the "cup overflowing" girl, and that is generally how I really feel.  But -- as I was thinking all of these thoughts today, I imagined that I cannot be the only one who feels this way, and so I decided to share.

Forgive me if it's too much.  But, if there is JUST ONE of you who feels the same, then it was worth me mentioning it.  Together, we now belong to the "OOPS, NOW YOU KNOW I'M HUMAN" club.

If you, like me, need a little inspiration lately, try these thought-provoking posts:
*I Am Enough
*What Candace Cameron Bure's Waltz Teaches Us About God
*About Comparing Ourselves to Others

I'm determined that tomorrow will be a better day.  Next week?  A better week!


  1. I SO could've written this post! And I too hate to be a dumper. Guess it runs in the family. Thanks for being honest. Love you!

  2. OH! absolutely true for me too, many times I have even thought of deleting my blog,but couldn't as I have made some lasting friendships in blogland. Thanks for being so honest about your feelings, Sally, your best excuse is rocking babies, makes for lasting memories.
    Looking forward to you posting again, thanks for the links.

  3. Sally, it has been a long winter followed by a rather rotten spring so that you're feeling under it does not surprise me. I totally get the " got no extra money" lying around to do anything with. We can't afford Mickey D's lately! The times they are a'changin' and it isn't for the better or is it? Hang in there! Warmer days, brighter days, happier days are coming.

  4. I can relate to so many things you have said. Maybe it is the Ohio weather. I seem to accomplish very little unless I force myself. I am busy and gone a lot but I could do more. Don't beat yourself up over it. You have a family and a rockin job other things can wait. We need a little sunshine and not that really hot stuff either.

  5. Sally, you just expressed so much of what so many of us feel at one time or another...this girl bloggers, as mom, as women! Here, here! This was a REALLY long winter...I'm still wearing a sweater as I type this! That kind of gloomy weather can weigh down even the peppiest among us...and I love your comment about not spending money to do a project just for the blog. I'm completely with you on that one! Here's hoping for warmer, sunnier days and lighter spirits! :)


Thanks so much for taking the time to comment! I read each and every one, and truly enjoy "conversations" with you! ~Sally

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