So, by 10:30, we were off to the doctor to "wait." We're good at waiting. Here's an example: My daughter stepped in a hole in June, and twisted her ankle pretty good. We kept thinking it was better (according to her reports), and waited to go to the doctor until August, when it was still bothering her. They told us it was broken, but 90% healed already, and looking good. Can you see my jaw hanging open at the news? The tear in my eye? I told the doctor, "I don't think I'll be receiving the "Mother of the Year" award this year. He told me "no harm, no foul! Things like this happen all the time!" Hmmm, why doesn't THAT make me feel better?
On Tuesday, we arrived at the doctor's office a few minutes early. The waiting room was busy. By 11:00, they called us back, and the doctor was in the room in a matter of 10 minutes. He checked my girl's wrist, ask her a few questions, and ordered up some x-rays. Nobody was waiting in x-ray, so we were taken care of right away. As I waited there, I really began beating myself up. I was screaming at myself inside my own head, full of guilt - even though I knew it had just been an accident. And then, there was a gentle tug at my soul - and the Lord was there beside me saying, "Let me carry that for you. I've been here the whole time, you know." {Do you ever get so far ahead of yourself that you think things are as good as they're gonna get, and you forget to even go to the Lord? He's there the whole time, you know.}
As soon as x-rays were completed, the doctor was called, and he came back to look at them. After checking from every angle, he said that he could only see swelling -- no fracture. Can I just tell you... relief flooded my soul. I knew what my sweet daughter had gone through with her ankle, and I didn't want that for her again. I may never win "Mother of the Year" for my timing, or my judgment -- heaven knows! But, if my kids are safe and healthy -- that is reward enough for me.
Of course, we are still waiting to hear for sure from the radiologist, but it seems that all is well. A little ice, a little ibuprofen, and things should improve. I'm so thankful. I'm also thankful that the Lord tugged at my soul, and reminded me that I wasn't alone.
Psalm 46:1
"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble."
Afterthought: As I think back through the day, I realize that God knew I wouldn't be "up to" a lot of waiting. That was probably the fastest visit to the doctor that we've had in a long time!
I just found your blog, we both made comments on Becky Higgins blog. I normally never click on the names but I clicked on yours and I love your blog. I love your honesty in this post. As moms, we juggle so much and we do our best. While in our eyes, we are never mother of year but for some others, we are! Many blessings!
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ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by Chastity! I'm glad you found me via Becky Higgins. Isn't she great? I hope you'll visit here often. You're right of course - about mothers juggling so many things. I often say that being a mother is the hardest job I've ever had - but it also has the BEST benefits!
Happy New Year to you!
Sally,
ReplyDeleteJust saw this pic! Yes, we love us some Dove Promises!! (Especially when they are "joy-ful!)
BTW-Did you see my DD layout on them? lol Hee hee